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Name: Sarah
Birthday: 7/16/1986
Interests: God, languages, traveling, accents, friendships, books, serving others...
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
1/7/2005
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| It's amazing how much music can affect you. I was listenin to Sinatra and when that cd finished I put in Michael Buble. When I was listenin to Sinatra I was simply appreciating the creativity of the songs...the words. Then with Michael...well his songs hit me differently. My first reaction was the desire to dance...that was hard to resist but I'm not the best dancer so I talked myself out of it. The second desire had a wider range and was not so easily put off. I had the desire to be with my boyfriend. The issue is that I don't have a boyfriend. So the add on desire of wantin to cuddle and be held really didn't help. I had to tell myself that eventually...eventually I'll meet a guy. One who will love God, respect others and go on an adventure with me. Cause that is what I really want. I want to begin that adventure that is love and marriage and then kids. (Granted the marriage and kids won't be happenin for quite some time.) I can't wait to see where that adventure leads and what challenges await, it's always exciting to think about. Anywho, the point is that I've just got to be patient. I've got to be patient, trusting and keep livin life. | | |
| Encouragement...is that such a bad thing to want? Or to need? I don't think so but hey...what do I know. | | |
| It's been quite sometime since I've written in xanga so I figured why not? Well, I finally got the job at Family Video that I have been tryin to get for about a month now. I can't believe how difficult it was to get. I had two interviews and then I had to take this test that was nothing short of the PSATs and pass that with a 70 at least. Which in truth, I had no idea if I was going to do because it had been so long since I had done any english.So I am starting at Family Video, thank the Lord. | | |
| So some one gave me a word today...they said that they heard the song "you've lost the that lovin feelin" from Top Gun playin then they saw me lookin and seekin almost desperately for somethin...(he didn't know what that was)...and God told him that I was goin to find it and that I was willin to do whatever it took to find what I was lookin for. And that I wasn't satisfied with the 'normal' path. With high school, college, and then a job but that I wanted something more.
Now my thoughts. Truth. I've signed up for the Air Force ROTC program at college but I was still unsure if that was what God wanted. I've been askin and beggin that He somehow show me cause I knew there was no way I'd succeed in that without Him. However, I had decided that if I stayed on the path of AFROTC and it was God's will then I was going to fight for it with everything I am. My family has lived with the 'curse' of running into a brick wall (thanks to satan) everytime we try to do and succeed at somethin. Well, with the word I just got I'm going to take it as Gods reply and unless in the near future he gives me a different word that shouts no this is my path. I'm goin to fight with everything I am to succeed in the AFROTC. I desire this. I hope anyone who reads this will pray and stand behind me. | | |
| Emotions...isn't it crazy how they come in waves. One minute you're fine, floating and drifting seemingly in control. The next minute you are in over your head, gasping for air and completely disoriented not knowing which way is up and all you want is to breathe. Then again the feeling of calm and control. And in that moment of calm you wonder how to best deal with the wave. Should you continue to fight it and simply deal with the panicked moments? Or should you simply allow the wave to drift and pull you hoping that you will stay above water if you do? But by then neither choice seems acceptable because by then the panic is gone and the feeling of lost control is gone. Making you again feel safe and able to handle what comes your way. Then the wave... | | |
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